I thought it would be interesting to observe myself as I begin this process of going from a repressed writer to a man that is writing. This ‘Open Notebook’ is really a sketchbook for my thought process, disposition and observations.
I’m a bit under the weather so I don’t see me accomplishing anything tonight. (I’ve already observed that I prefer to write at night but not post the work until the next morning. So I’m writing this at 8:16 PM on Thursday evening and expect to publish it Friday morning with my coffee.) I did want to capture the process of transformation- how I’m freeing myself from a fear of failure and just writing. So this (short) piece stakes out my intent to observe and document this process within myself.
I hope you enjoy it.
-T
TMPinSYR 
This, in my opinion, is the most wonderful gift ever given (to oneself): “I’m freeing myself from a fear of failure and just [ ].” As I get older and look back on what I would (or could) have done differently, this is the only thing I wish I could change; if only I had figured this out when I was younger. In any case, I am glad I know it now, and I am very happy for that you do too. Right on! Write on!! Oh, and if you can figure out how, teach your sons to ignore the fear of failure too!